I am not a criminal
I am ducking my responsibility
Before it comes
To telling my grandchildren
(For I shall have none)
That I am the one who did these things;
I am the one who choked the sea
With plastic, wrapped conveniently
Around everything I could ever need
(And some things I didn’t)
To keep them sanitary, clean
Never mind the lungs and eyes
The breaking hearts of those unseen,
Never mind the damaged soil
Pits of poison, smoke’s toxic roil,
Death dripping from the very pores
Of those I never knew, never heard of before.
It was me.
I am the one who chained the men
The women, and the children when
I bought the things which owned their lives
Paid their captors, swallowed the lies,
Ignored the truths I didn’t like
So I could shop, accessorise
Get more stuff, more things, so I
Could plug the holes inside my brain
With gizmos, gadgets, all the same,
All designed to hypnotise –
A smokescreen I would surely buy.
It was me.
I am the one who killed the trees
My carbon footprint running free
A breeze of coughed-up gasoline
And factory smoke, and things unseen
Which leak from gadgets unsafe, un-green
But things I need to keep on up
To pinion life, drink technology’s cup
Of profit-mongering, insistent sheen
To gild the lily of my life, I mean
I need access to all these screens.
It was me.
I am the one who ran the slaves
Existent in this modern day
But hidden, carefully away
From prying eyes and media lens
Just in case we’d have to cleanse
The way we do things – the system works
We use, abuse, discard their lives for perks
For clothes and sweets
With nary a thought
For the ghost in the system
The humans bought, and sold
So we get what we ought .
It was me.
I was the one who tortured and maimed
Sweet animals whose lives were claimed
Destroyed from birth to feed my face
Hidden from the human race
Except for those whose ailing brains
Kill for me, over and over again
Who I’m so quick to vilify
“But it was all for you”
Their cry rings true
And I sit chagrined
Memories of teeth tearing meat
Grease dripping finger-swept down my chin
Not a thought for the lives trapped within
The process of my greed.
It was me.
I am the one who ruined the earth
Who never saw its real worth
Who ignored the wisdoms once bequeathed
To those who followed, too enwreathed
In our own lives, so turned our backs
On what was good, and now we lack
The control, the capability, to undo
What we’ve done, so we
Just bury our heads and close our eyes
We’re not criminals – there’s no crime
We put pennies in the collection pot
And think we’re doing fine
‘Cos we’re contributing;
Assuaging our conscience
Deliberately misconstruing
Our place in all this,
And our responsibility.
When will we stand up?
Own up.
It was me.
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About Lizzi Lewis:
Lizzi is a Deep Thinker, Truth-Teller and seeker of Good Things, committed to living life in Silver Linings. She’s also silly, irreverent and tries to write as beautifully as possible. She sends glitterbombs and gathers people around her – building community wherever possible. She’s absolutely certain that #LoveWins.
Find her writing at Considerings and The Well Tempered Bards.
Touching poem about a horrible topic.
Brava!! This is the most compelling and well-written poem I’ve ever read on this subject. You are a poet who takes risk and we are all the better for it. Thank you.